i’m gonna try getting re-checked by the ENT doctor and see if they still recommend a nasal duct surgery to fix a crooked shape that could improve sleep breathing

in summer 2019 my ENT recommended the operation
I waited until end of 2019 to find the time (since they said that I would have bleeding inside the nose and generally be miserable for two weeks)
then end of 2019 they said that my surgery approval expired
and I switched my primary doctor with a new job
my new primary doctor recommended against the surgery -> currently here

been using a CPAP machine since 2017

as my condition worsened over 2020 and 2021, I got a bunch of pillows to help me sleep sideways. that’s not going too well.. sideways sleeping position is extremely taxing for my neck and shoulders, i rarely manage to fall asleep. maybe i’m doing it wrong

I also got some pillows and structure to sometimes sleep belly down. that’s.. a bit better, although I still need to figure out a good neck/chest height support balance

i also began exercising and going to the gym since 2018, as they said that apnea can start with obesity
so far i went from 240 pounds in 2016 to 205 pounds now

i have this (possibly irrational) fear of sleeping and then waking up with both nasal and mouth breathing ducts completely obstructed, unable to breathe in nor out (which I remember once happened when I was like 10 years old).. or something less severe, like having mucus deep inside the nasal duct..

that’s why when i sometimes wake up at 3am and notice nasal duct feels obstructed, and can’t manage to rinse it out, i get scared of falling back asleep and end up staying wake through the rest of the day.

this has been happening somewhat often last month, and took a toll on my daytime productivity